I stumbled on to a common theme in all of my sexual desires. The more I thought about it the more I realized that there is one thing in common with all of the stories I read and write, all of the porn videos I watch, and all of the fantasies I have. The woman has to be seen as worthless by society. I like stories about slavery because slaves are seen as disposable to a society. It can't just be the rapist in the story that sees her as worthless, but the society the rapist comes from that must see her this way. This is why I like stories where the women are used by many different people. My favorite stories are always about young women being forced into prostitution, or forced to work in brothels, sometimes as slaves, in a society that legally has slaves.
All the stories I have written have had this element incorporated into them. I wrote a story about a young Jewish woman being sexually abused by a German official. I wrote a story about a slaver group capturing a village and herding them to distant slave markets. I wrote a story about the secret police capturing and processing a beautiful young dissident. I wrote a story about an enslaved woman trying to survive in a brothel. The victims are always people that are shunned or dehumanized by the society the rapists are from.
The porn videos I watch are all of prostitutes, the homeless, young runaways, prisoners, or slaves. It seems that taking advantage of the dregs of society arouses me.
I only recently was able to fully articulate this phenomenon to myself. But it has been present since I discovered my sexuality in my teens.
Is anyone else like this?