1. Your gender and age? female 20
2. Do you identify yourself most as Straight? Gay/Lesbian? Bisexual? straight
3. Do you fantasize being the rapist or the victim? victim
4. Age when you first started having these kinds of fantasies? not sure exactly, but since 14-15 and more and more
5. Do you still know what started it? (f.e. movie scene, book, story you heard etc. ...) think combination of experience and stories I heard and read
6. Have you been molested or sexually abused as a child? No
7. Have you ever been raped in real life? yes
8. How often do you fantasize about rape? depend a lot on mood, sometime every day sometime not for weeks
9. Do you masturbate while you fantasize? sometime, but always return to fantasies again and again
10. Do you masturbate while you read rape stories or watch rape movies? no, maybe few time a little
11. Do rape fantasies help you to get a faster/better orgasm while you are masturbating? Yes
12. Are your masturbation fantasies always about rape or do you also have vanilla fanasies? both, depend on my mood
13. Do you more often fantasize about stranger rape or rape with someone you know? nobody I know from real, but sometime imagine total strangers othertime I imagine I maybe know them a little
14. Do your fantasies more often involve one on one scenes or gangrape? mix but often imagine group but really lot to do with atmospfere not so much how I imagine sex part
15.Do you always fantasize to be involved in the rape (as rapist or victim) or does it sometimes arouse you just to watch? always part, but imagine sometime first see it happen to someone else before same happens to me
16. How important is the enjoyment of the rapist(s) for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important) important
17. How important is the suffering of the victim for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important) important, I never imagine I end up liking it or happy about it
18.What are the most common settings for your fantasies? (bedroom, outdoors, forest, a cabin, a dungeon, prison, military camp, etc.) back room / basement room / bedroom, some place not out "in open" at concert or party - or in car, stairwell, photostudio, hotelroom
19 What's your favorite typ of rapist (blacks, gangster, convicts, soldier, biker, pirat, KKK men, etc. ..) Normal guys that I could meet in street - I dont like imagine "perfect" guys like rich, handsome, but more normal business men, rough street guys often in general imagine strong and big guys, hard with some anger maybe sexist / racism to me even if they dont knwo me, but pretending to be normal nice until it is too late for me
19b ... or victim (virgin, schoolgirl, housewife, middle aged woman, MILTF, business woman, nun, femal POW .....)? Always imagine myself or someone like myself but maye in big different situation. I imagine my own age now or sometime from when I was younger - somehow imagine Im in over my head, so naive about guys, drinks, sex, drugs, danger in world - just make it worse / "better" for me
20. Are your fantasy scenes typically more "soft" (the victim being forced against her will/ overpowered/unable to resist without overt violence) or more brutal (include the victim being hit/slapped/punched by the rapist)? can be both depend on idea and mood
21. What's the center of your fantasy, the sex or the humiliation and degredation? I think vulnerability, how I end in situation and punished for my stupidity for who I am - sex is just one part that without other parts just boring to me
22. Is it important that your fantasy scene has a convincing overpowering sequence including some struggling, slapping, screamimg etc depend on idea
23. Do your fantasy scenes typically include convincing resistance (kicking, biting etc.) by the victim? depend on idea
24. Is it important that your fantasy victim is screaming, pleading, begging etc depend on idea
25. Is it important that your fantasy rapist(s) is/are degrading the victim with words ( calling her a slut, whore etc.) ? What for me is important is feeling, that he means it, that its not just empty words to humiliate and I want to know why he means this, imagine what it is in who I am that he hates, make him think Im stupid slut?
26. Do your scenes typically include a man's cum and if yes, where does it usually end up? my mouth, pussy, sometime face, hair, breasts
27. Do your scenes include anal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never) rare, I dont know why but just really dont like anything with ass
28. Do your scenes include oral rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never) yes almost always
29. Do your scenes include vaginal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never) yes almost always
30. Do your scenes typically include the victim having an orgasm? Mostly not but if fits "story" sometime imagine it happen, but where its never something I end up liking willing about
31. How important is the size of the rapist(s) cock(s) cock in your fantasies? Not important in self but do often imagine sex end up painful both for hardness and size difference
32. How long does a typically rape fantasy (masturbating) session usually last? depends a lot
33. How do you feel after such a "session" tired, relaxed, ashame, dirty, wrong ... troubled
34. Do you sometimes feel some kind of guilt for your fantasies? yes
35. Does someone in your real life know about your fantasy? No
36. Do you know of someone in your real life having such fantasies? No
37. Have you ever enacted a rape roleplay in real life? No
38. Do you imagine yourselve or your victim to be tied up? not really, but maybe like to tie hands or look me to bed, but not like bondage
39. Are kidnapping - captivity - repeated rape - sexual slavery scenarios part of your fantasies? yes sometime, but often more abstract imagine what happens later after main part of fantasy
40. Is the possible pregnancy of the victim part of your fantasies? yes sometime
41. Are there any celebrities or pornstars playing a role in your fantasies (as rapists or victims)? No
42. Are there other key elements to your fantasies that I have missed with the questions above? If so, please describe them briefly. Often imagine element of racism in imagine some reason the guy or guys think Im stupid or deserve it or something either because I speak Russian or I they think Im just from poor country or ... also often imagine they trick me or manipulate me first to get drunk or drugged. Its not the only ideas, but I imagine something like this a lot