Welcome! Who's Angela?
Well I can't give her full name because Angela is a woman with a real-life restraining order against me. I propositioned her sexually one too many times and she decided to seek the restraining order. Although I'm respecting the restraining order in real life, it is actually a turn on for me to have the restraining order against me. It makes me feel like a 'bad boy' and I like that feeling. So I fantasize about fucking Angela all the more now--forbidden fruit and all that--although in real life I can't contact her due to the order.
I think the fact that you have a restraining order maybe a sign that you're doing something wrong.
The idea of you focusing on someone who isn't into you? How healthy is that?
You know, there may actually be a woman out there who actually likes you & perhaps would like to explore rape with you.