I'm here and staying here because it's a rare place where almost anything can be discussed amongst people who I respect. The quality of the stories and conversations is incredibly high and the range of subject matter covers all my hot buttons. Just when I think I've seen it all I read a new story that proves I'm nowhere near the end of my journey.
I enjoy living in two worlds. To all but a select few my public persona is the typical boy scout, vanilla, quiet guy who no one would ever hesitate to trust.
The world inside my head is an entirely different matter.
When I read extreme stories my initial reaction is often based on my public persona and I say to myself this is too much. But, inevitably, I keep reading and as I do my excitement grows. Afterwards, I start searching for similar stories for once I get a taste I have to have the whole meal.
I love the progression of going deeper and deeper into the rabbit hole of fantasy, lust, rape, and sex. In doing so I've learned to be more aware of what makes people tick. Yes, there is true horror going on every day. But only by exploring and really understanding the motivations of the people who are responsible for it can one hope to minimize it. Those who cover their eyes and plug their ears at the mention of rape, pedophilia, bestiality, sadism, etc. never learn and can't hope to have an impact.